Reduced Anxiety and Stress

So I realized that i have been able to think and make plans for the future without getting super stressed. Not that i am planning out my entire life. I am able to look for housing, and plan my classes, even with burgeoning pressure without shutting down because of anxiety. I am really grateful for the medications that are able to balance the chemicals in my head so that i can actually function. It wasn't until my anxiety was diminished that i realized how much anxiety i was having before that. People used to get angry at me because i could remember almost word for word our conversations. They didn't like having their words handed back to them. I realized that i used to be so anxious all of the time that as i walked away from a conversation where anything of merit had happened, from someone making a promise to me feeling stupid, i would repeat the conversation over and over in my head until my anxiety lessened. It kind of feels weird to not remember everything in such great detail, but it really feels good to not feel so anxious. It kind of sucks for school, because i am pretty sure my memory just isn't as good as it used to be, which is disappointing. I would take lower anxiety over the increase in memory any day. Well maybe not on test days... Obviously it isn't perfect, but i have little realizations all of the time about how it helps my life. A lot of people don't understand what real depression is like. They don't fully understand that chemicals in your brain are responsible for the emotions we feel. Our brain releases chemicals depending on the situation so we associate it appropriately. When your brain has an issue with the way it produces chemicals, it isn't your fault. You can learn to live with it, like i did with constant anxiety, or now there are medications that can help balance the chemicals in your brain. My dad used to be really cranky until he started taking medication for his anxiety. He isn't on a daily pill, but when his anxiety overwhelms him he can take a pill to correct for it. It can be hard to realize how jaded your view is through anxiety. You think you are being perfectly reasonable, but if you didn't have that anxiety you would be better prepared to function in that situation. I am really grateful for the advances in the medical field that have greatly affected my life. Who knows where i would be without them.